old enough to know but too young to care.

please, don't fingerbang that walrus.

2009-04-30T21:07:50Z

I really just can't stop watching The Whitest Kids U Know. It's the most ridiculous shit I've ever seen. I love it way too much.

It's getting way too humid outside already. Frances's apartment is hot.

I need to stop chain smoking.

Good day, kids.

it ends tonight.

2008-09-30T06:05:11Z

I just dropped my cigarette down my shirt, lit-end down. My right boob has a little burn mark on it. That's attractive.
Terrific.

I really need to stop smoking. It'd be nice not hacking up a lung at least once a day. It's going to happen soon, damnit! It fucking needs to. Rawrrrr.

calling all skeletons

2008-07-17T06:16:36Z

The Alkaline Trio show was amazing. The whole weekend in Cleveland was so much fun. I couldn't have asked for a better time. I really wish I could have stayed longer, though.

Midnight showing of 'The Dark Knight' tomorrow. You better believe I'm peeing myself with excitement.

agony & irony.

2008-07-03T16:07:10Z

Alkaline Trio in Cleveland in a week?

Fuck yeah. I'm so excited. It's a rarity that I get to see my favorite bands live.

I'm floating on fucking clouds, dude.

underwear.

2008-06-30T05:24:10Z

1500mg of Tylenol, 600mg of Advil and 6mg of Melatonin... and the pain is just becoming bearable.

I'm on disability, I can't work for at least another 2 months, and I have to go to physical therapy now.

Blah blah blah, life sucks. Cry me a fucking river, right?

Besides that, everything else is actually good. The pain sucks, but I'll manage.

That's all I've got for now.

something new.

2008-02-21T02:27:19Z

i don't need negativity in my journal. don't bring it here.
only meaningful, happy things from here on out. i promise!

hey good lookin'

2008-01-29T02:53:58Z

Things are looking up.

I have a decent job that pays good and I like it! How about that shit?

Other than that, nothing's new. Same old boring routine.

Oh, but I do need some new crayons. You know, to go with my coloring books. Damn, I forgot about that...

i'm tired of cold weather.

2008-01-13T15:27:06Z

So I've gone on 2 job interviews this past week. Both look promising. I'm kinda scared though, I've never worked with food before. I hope I can keep up with it all. I'm sure I'll be fine.

I think things might finally be starting to look up.

But I do still think I'm going crazy. It's cool though, I've been crazy before.

kick it.

2007-12-31T07:38:39Z

As Blind Melon said, life ain't so shitty.

I'm still alive and kickin'.

I've been really sick for an entire week. Throwing my guts up, coughing, sneezing, aching, the works. Oh it's been lovely, but I think I'm healing now. I'm still looking for a job. I broke down an applied to McDonald's. I really don't care anymore, I need money. Dad's going to be out of work for 3 months at the least after he has surgery, so money will be tight. And I need to get out of this house. I'm going crazy, slowly but surely. Friends have been keeping me sane (sort of) so I haven't gone completely out of my mind. If I had a job, everything would be okay.

I miss being in Huntington. I miss my friends there SO much it hurts. I miss the closest thing I had to a routine there. It kept me partially sane.

But now's my chance to completely start over new. And this time I don't have anything holding me back. Not stupid, indecisive, unstable boys, not anyone.

I can do this. I know I can.

bohemianwaltz @ 2007-11-05T20:59:00

2007-11-06T02:04:47Z

fairytale's over.
i have nothing else to tell.

defunct.

first single

2007-09-29T23:30:59Z

"I could stand to do without, all the people I have left behind
What's the point in going around when it's a straight line baby, a straight line down
So let's make a list of who we need and it's not much if anything
Let's make a list of who we need and we'll throw it away
'Cause we don't need anyone, no we don't need anyone"

random photos.

2007-06-04T23:47:30Z

I hate not working. I'm so bored.

Chloe, my puppy!

Front porch.

Oh, hey Shermie.

This cat is about 76 years old.

Hopefully I start work soon. Being at home all day is driving me nuts.

raising the bar.

2007-05-28T20:45:57Z

Today's the best day I've had in a long time, and I haven't even really done much.

Got up around 12:30, went and swam and layed out in the sun. Dad and Tina cooked out. Ate good food, got burnt and actually tanned a little bit. It's just been really nice. I've been so down lately I guess this is what I really needed.

I have about 9823749873 doctor appointments within the next couple weeks to get my meds straightened out. Hopefully I can take care of that. I'm supposed to be starting work here in a couple weeks. At least that's what they keep telling me. I've just been laying around the house and it's driving me nuts. I really need to get out and work. Money is always good too.

I found out I didn't qualify for financial aid this year. I really don't know how I'm going to get the money to go back to school, but I am damn determined to. I don't wanna have to stay here and go to Tech. I love Huntington way too much. I don't know exactly what I'm gonna do about that...

Supposed to go see Pirates 3 tomorrow with Frances. Maybe I should watch the 2nd one first? Yeah probably... Okay I'm done with words for now. Later kids.

OH HAY... you guys should recommend me some music. I need some new stuff to listen to. I'll listen to pretty much anything. Suggestions, please?!

RIP

2007-05-28T07:02:50Z

Nuh fucking uh.

Charles Nelson Reilly died. That's depressing.

Whatever. 'The Match Game' wouldn't have been half as good without him.

I'ma go shed some tears and listen to Meatloaf. He knows how it is.

awww

2007-04-25T23:08:43Z

I've been having an awesome time with such awesome people this semester. I'm really sad it's almost over. I dunno what I'm gonna do all summer without them.

Beka & Shellie

Not sure what Kayla's doing

Current read/overdue library book

Samantha's retarded claw

At this point, the evening's festivities got a little crazier.

We all freaked out when we saw this. I thought it was a dinosaur :(

John and Carrie!

I like catching Ingrid off guard. It's my favorite.

Heeeey Carrie

Myspace whore

No sir, I don't like it

OH HEY INGRID TRICKED YOU!

Awww I loves them :)

Robot John...?

John comforting Ingrid after kicking her ass

Not really sure what's going on here

Funniest shit I've ever seen. Stupid ass cat.

Oh hey Megan, nice face

They bonded

So did they

Kitty!

Yeah pretty much

They make the weirdest faces

Awwww

Weird noises/faces

I love these kids. Really, I do. :)

whats wrong with your face?

2007-03-08T03:09:51Z

So I skipped classes yesterday and took a road trip to Virginia Beach and Norfolk to see Pepper and Mad Caddies. It was pretty incredible.

I only got a few pictures of Mad Caddies, and they aren't very good because there was a giant pole in the way.

...Pepper!!!

*melts*

it should be a crime to be that hot.

Those guys are freaking beautiful. There's a drummer too, but I couldn't get a good picture of him. I know these are sort of redundant, but they're still good so whatever.

Oh, and here's a video.

There are picture on my Myspace from the beach. You should definitely go look.

What an amazing day/night :)

i just don't know.

2007-03-06T02:12:30Z

I'm off balance. VERY badly. Things aren't flowing quite so well anymore.

I'm having a hard time getting out of bed in the morning to go to class. Even when I go to bed at a decent hour and get decent sleep. I get up, go to breakfast around 8am, then go back to sleep. And I sleep and sleep and sleep until it's suddenly 5 in the evening. Then I roll out of bed and wonder why I feel like shit.

I can't keep doing this. I know I'm fucking up bad. I'm doing poorly in my classes. Well, I can only assume that seeing as how I don't really go anymore. Um, what happened? I used to like college. I don't think it's even the fact that I'm starting to dislike it, it's just that I've never had any discipline as far as having someone get me up and tell me to get my ass to class. Ever since middle school, I've been left alone in the mornings, so if I didn't want to go to school, I simply went back to bed. I know, I know... I'm an "adult" (I use that term VERY loosely) now, I should be able to get myself up. I just have no will power or self-discipline.

I'm afraid I'm going to fuck up the rest of my life. I'm afraid I'm already on the path to doing that.

Other than this, I'm completely content. Spring break is coming up so I get to go home and see people. I know that will get old after about the first day or two, but I'm still looking forward to it.

I guess that's all I have to say now. Oh, and I'm making this entry public just because I'm feeling a little ballsy and I'm not really worried about mommy and daddy seeing that I use the f-word excessively. They should know this by now :)

Edit: I found my camera (which has been lost for a bit) so I decided to take some pictures. They're not very interesting but whatever.

Ruth dancing in my room. Cutest picture ever.

Um, LIFE. I can't survive without tea.

My current desktop.

George Carlin desktop calender.

Addictions. It's serious.

My roomie's side of the room.

My side of the room. It's more interesting than it looks, I promise.

friends only.

2005-10-12T00:33:38Z

friends only, folks.
i don't care if you add me, just make sure we have a few things in common.
oh yeah, don't forget to comment.